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CONFESSIONS OF AN ACTRESS AT THE STARTING POINT ONCE AGAIN
Thank you for saying that I am healthier now. But you're serious right? You're not just saying this cause you read articles about me exercising hard
out?
['DAISY']
Spending two months in Netherlands for the filming of 'Daisy' wasn't as easy as i thought it would be. Since my arrival back to Korea I haven't
been feeling too well. I couldn't think of any other way to get well so I started exercising, since there aren't any proper ways of getting better plus if
there was a proper method it probably would be boring, right? I have a personal trainer helping me get better. But what I realised is that even if
people say that a certain method is the best, what you enjoy the most is the best for your body, this is the same with exercise. Say for example
your training your muscles, if you're enjoying it you should be able to feel the muscles jumping up and down. I have exercised to the point where its
become a habit, for example having 3 meals a day. I exercise so much that people are saying things like "just watching you go to and fro the health club
is getting annoying" (I was actually quite busy mentally but the people around wouldnt have been able to notice this, I wasn't JUST exercising).
Through exercise and thinking I realised that I am a part of the Earth's repetitive movement like that of a pendulum. Something like self recognition you
say? I LIKE THAT!
One cannot have everything they want in life. You have to purify your thoughts and work hard for something to be yours. For someone to be
able to do this, one must experience all sorts of feelings. Also they must be able to protect themselves, which is most important. I'm an actress right? I
was always seeking attention, whether it be how I act, my clothes and even the food I eat. But I realised that just because you do things to get
attention doesn't mean that you necessarily stand out in a crowd. Just protecting yourself (mentally) is the most important. Right now I feel like I am
myself, not trying to be someone else. That's the only way I can express how I feel about myself at the moment. Everything I do, I feel fully
satisfied. And I plan to keep it this way.
I sincerely hope that my character, Hye Young from 'Daisy' blends into the movie well. I want it so that people would come out of the movie and ask
themselves, who was the main female protagonist. This is because my character has completely changed. The making of 'Daisy' was a time for me
to forget about the old characters that I played and to move on. So far, in the roles that I have played, my characters were the key to movie, I was
loved by one man, and if something went wrong with that man, it was over for me. But it was a different story for the movie 'Daisy'. In this movie the
main focus is on the two male characters Jung Woo Sung and Lee Sung Jae, whereas I had the role of a plain everyday woman. Since my character in
'Daisy'
was so different from my characters in 'Windstruck' (Kyung Jin) and 'The Uninvited' (Yeon) I was very worried at how Hye Young would
turn out. In conclusion 'Daisy' was an obstacle that I had to overcome.
I reckon that being an actor is something you inherit, or your born with. I enjoy what I do for a living so much that I think to myself, "where
would I be without acting?" I get the feeling I was born with a wonderful gift. People will probably think this to themselves, they would probably
think that all the decisions that i have made in life were actually made by other people, but that is incorrect, all the choices so far were decided by
me. Well not ALL the choices but what I'm trying to say is that I had a word in everything that has happened to me. Sometimes the fact that other
people make the decisions for you is good. But nowadays most of the decisions are left for me to make, which requries a lot of responsibilty, its not
easy. I take a lot of advice from the people around me as i need to learn more and do my best at being a star.
If one is born to be an actor, then I think acting is the process of gathering your experiences in life and adapting that with your character. I
think I didn't do too bad with my role in 'Daisy', but I get the feeling that I could have done a bit better when I look back. My characters from
movies such as 'White Valentine' and 'My Sassy Girl' are long gone now. If I wanted to do a similar role now, I would have to force
myself, it wouldnt come naturally to me anymore.
Actors a faced with inconveniences all the time. That is my life. I will do my best at acting and I wont get too greedy along the way. I was born
in 1981, 26 years old now. You think I'm too old to act now? Your Wrong. Its
going to be a new start for me now.
magazine: Cine21
translation: Paul
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